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May 11th, 2005

:) hey !!! @ 12:49 pm

Feeling: busy

“All the fear has left me now/ I’m not frightened anymore/It’s my heart that pounds beneath this flesh/It’s my mouth that pushes out this breathe”

 

I am not exactly sure why this sing is sitting in my head at all… it has been there since last night… I am adjusting to a new life away from the people and thing I know. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing either. Dusty had a great analogy last night…

In life there are 4 main arenas (that is what I will call them) to maintain:

 

RELATIONSHIPS: there have been so many changes in this category for me… one of my best friends moved across the country, I moved away from most of my friends... mostly for my sanity but it is still a bit hard….

 

HOME: Um can we say chaotic… It has been a crazy trying to get settled… I worked at moving stuff this past weekend and all it went well except for the fact that the couch I got didn’t fit into the apt., so I am working on that one now… seeing what I can do for something new on a budget LOL!!! I took the last week to just get away from a lot of things… so I have spent a great deal of time at Dusty’s so I haven’t really established a home yet…

 

WORK: Well this turned into a fiasco but yesterday I started my new job, Medical Billing in Olympia. I worked doing some billing but this is a whole new ballgame… it is way too soon to tell if I will like it or not but I was just told that I am catching on pretty fast… shock shock… but it is still a HUGE adjustment.

 

INTERESTS/HOBBIES: Well I haven’t really figured out the lay of the land yet so I am not sure what all is here in Oly to occupy my time… But I don’t have my computer here yet so I haven’t been doing huge amounts of writing… I need to play on my guitar though, maybe some time tonite… I am hoping soon to get a bit more acclimated to my surroundings…

 

Dusty said that these are 4 areas of life are like car tires. Usually when one is blown at least you have the other three to help you out… well the thing is that I have all four tires blown… hehehehe that is an adjustment that scared and terrified me the other night… but I am doing better… just trying to get into a routine.. an adjustment…

 

I also have stepped away form a few things… some people have questions my motives and lied about some things in a group I was very active in … I have stepped away and I feel pretty good about that… I am hoping that I can eventually get people to know the truth… but at least I know the truth….

 

Aside from that I have just been busy with ME and I am enjoying that… Olympia is treating me well so far… and soon I know I will be back on my feet and life will smooth out a bit J

 

“If I shed a tear I won’t cage it/I won’t fear love/and if I feel a rage I won’t deny it/ I won’t fear love”

“Peace in the struggle to find peace comfort on the way to comfort”

 

Huge hugs

M

 

 
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From:[info]lindas_muse
Date: May 11th, 2005 01:19 pm (UTC)
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Hey, Michael. Glad to hear things are going pretty well for you right now. That's super. You'll catch on with that billing job, too, I'm sure.

*Hugs and love*

Linda
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From:[info]musiklovr3
Date: May 11th, 2005 04:32 pm (UTC)
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thanx for the positive words :)
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From:[info]jesseroo
Date: May 11th, 2005 01:59 pm (UTC)
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Love you, Michael Man. :)
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From:[info]musiklovr3
Date: May 11th, 2005 02:02 pm (UTC)
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thank you I love you too :) i may call you tonite :)
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From:[info]twisting_path
Date: May 11th, 2005 10:32 pm (UTC)
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Disappointed...no email from Dustin today. And hey, I totally love your four tire analogy...am too tired to do it now but plan to sit and do my own version of your post, I think, because I had at least a couple blow outs myself and it is fun and interesting and perhaps helpful to categorize things a bit. I think it is a good thing.

Disappointed also Michael about your reference--you know what one. Sigh...see, stick head in sand like I have, then miss things, but maybe in this case...yeah, not so bad to miss. All I know is I miss you but sure am enjoying Dusty. LOL. I likes him. Bunches. And like I told him, if I don't fly up sometime to see what I was going to see, nothing to keep me from doing it sometime seeing someone else.
Lol cryptic is fun isn't it?

Sleepy C
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From:[info]musiklovr3
Date: May 12th, 2005 09:00 am (UTC)
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I wanted to email you but not sure which email I should use... your gmail or sbcglobal... let me know :)
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From:[info]twisting_path
Date: May 12th, 2005 11:54 am (UTC)
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Either, I get both but the gmail one is such that i can get it easy from work :). Just a click away!
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From:[info]ladybug1962
Date: May 12th, 2005 10:53 am (UTC)
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Welcome to Oly, Sorry I didn't get to meet you last weekend but soon enough! I will be glad to show ya about the town! Treat ya to a Spar milkshake sometimes soon.

*hugs*
carmen
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From:[info]musiklovr3
Date: May 12th, 2005 11:05 am (UTC)
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kewl sounds sweet :) yeah it was a crazy weekend :)
hugs
M
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From:[info]violetsuede
Date: May 13th, 2005 12:38 am (UTC)
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ok...what in the world is going on?
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From:[info]brown_eye_angel
Date: May 18th, 2005 07:14 pm (UTC)
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Well i'm glad things are going good for you. It sounds like you have found the happy part of life with a lil change.
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From:[info]santamonicared
Date: May 19th, 2005 09:52 am (UTC)
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I thought you would find this cartoon amusing. I think it's funny....but oh so true. take it easy-Jess
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From:[info]musiklovr3
Date: May 19th, 2005 10:08 am (UTC)
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That is way too cute :)

thanx for the chuckle :)

Huge hugs
M
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